Monday, 31 August 2009

Creation......


song by song, wave by wave,
dance with me night and day,
hear the music i hear, feel the moves i feel,
together we'll find our way........
i hold and bestow all melodies,
i flow in this river that flows,
throw your rays upon my path,
let me shine bright in your glow.......
you are the purusha witnessing life,
i am the swirling shakti,
step by step and beat by beat,
we become shiv parvati.......
the earth our ground, the sky our home,
the ocean our playing field,
with our smiles and grace, this world is born
as we love and sow our seeds.......

Thursday, 27 August 2009

Letting go.......


this is a time of break ups and breakthroughs,
of closing old books that are read and done,
chisel away what is no longer essential,
embrace the story that has begun......
rusted patterns of hurt and dismay,
a loop going round and round,
sometimes one needs to slash it all,
and patiently wait for rennaisance.....
some who we think are close to us,
are sometimes not which is alright too,
it is not always about working on oneself,
sometimes one needs to simply cut through......
never easy to let go of people, 
always believed i had to try more,
i resisted and i persisted,
sometimes it is wiser to walk out the door.......
i can choose to learn my lessons,
through joys instead of pain,
growth lies in sunny moments,
not always in cold and rain.......
sometimes one needs to say no,
make space for the yes to flow,
no to connections with no aspirations,
yes to the ones that make you soar.........

Monday, 24 August 2009

Find your Place



a subtle sensation of peace, a slight quiver of joy
a solid feeling of calm, a smile smiling all day......
i ask myself why? how is it possible to wake up
and from beginning to end, feel this way?
anger flashes yes of course
irritation is sometimes galore
a tightness in the being at times
even moments when love is hard to find......
yet, i have understood one thing if not more
a realization that seeps deep into my core
if you accept sadness, anger, whatever, the moment it arises
it simply flows through you and leaves you with no crises.......
life brings you a rich palette of emotions that pass
if you let go of all judgements, embrace them and dance
then all life and every experience becomes beautiful to behold
you rub your hands in glee and laugh at all that unfolds.......   
you come back again and again to your inner center
this sweet soft shining heart that is strong and tender
you get back in touch with love that never went away
and in this world, with all you love, you find your glorious place.......

Sunday, 9 August 2009

For Fleur.......



This journey towards healing and transformation
began almost two years ago.
The seeds were sown......something began to grow......
Territory unknown, walk your own path,
create as you go......

Up and down, round and round,
learn the lessons again and again,
in a new way.
A spiral, not a circle.......

Even healing and being at-ease,
free of dis-ease......is a path.
Not a goal to achieve......
Free from even the idea of Freedom??
Yes, ride on and see.......

Raw - 100, 80, 60, 50 who knows.......
stopped counting a long time ago.

Green juice remains a friend fidele.
Nuts, seeds, loads of greens......
Some cooked, even fish and eggs occasionally,
legumes and beans.....

I hold lightly this path, no concepts or "ways to be"
embracing whatever unfolds is the key......

46 in two months and changing careers.
A new passion, new path, new work,
moving on, letting go of old fears......

Meeting people at the point they are,
leading them gently to where they want to be.
"A Healthy Plate" launches in a few weeks......

Now in food creating,
food styling and food photography,
I am focused, involved and totally crazy about!!!!

Blossoming, Blooming, with love
and things I love to do,
I become a Fleur......too........:-)))))))


Friday, 24 October 2008

Scribbles from my journal - 16



detox.......


thoughts rise to the surface
clouding the mind
with inessentials,
a little bit of this and a little bit of that
takes up all my attention....
feelings occupy too much space
leaving none for intuition,
emotions emerge from the past
pulling me in many directions.....
a sense of solitude and aloneness
envelops me in a tight embrace,
i begin to believe for a few moments
i am disconnected
from divine love and grace.....
an ache a longing a burning
a yearning
fills my every cell and pore,
flows through the body as pain
and almost touches my core......
i sit still for hours
letting it go
letting it happen,
witnessing this detox all over once more.......

two days later, feeling cleaner and cleansed
i wonder what that drama was all about,
why every time it happens
why every time i get caught......
sipping my green juice
soothing and lovely,
i feel grace touch me again
and i know it never left me.......
perhaps the next or next or next time around
i'll have less to let go
and less to clean,
my body and mind
will be integrally transformed
totally healed and free of dis-ease........



Monday, 13 October 2008

A big moment of Gratitude :-)



i am grateful........

for green juices, sunshine in london, for moments of rest, for mom who is the best, peppermint tea, all the smiles received, to helena who is always there with a soul that cares, for the breath i take, for the love i make, to uj who radiates light and almost everyday brightens my life, to sri aurobindo and ramanna maharishi, no words would ever express adequately.....

for my brother who rocks, for eckart tolle talks, the books i read, for those i keep, to lynn bell, teacher and guide who helps me constantly find my light, to julia my friend, precious angel who heals - gives me all the essential keys, for passing clouds who whisper to me, for all the marvels i see, for the words that flow, and the heart that knows......

for cherries, blueberries and custard apples, to kate my goddess - for constant care and support, indukins my friend forever, even though i see him almost never!! for the green revolution, for all the solutions - to problems that exist only in my mind, to carrie, shell, suki, poppy, for jenny, ben, kristen, lindsay, for all blogging partners who make my day, for music and melodies, for the colors of fall, and to blissfilled rafique, who never fails to call, every single year on my birthday........

for rain who is dear, never mind she is far or near, for sangeeta who has come back into my life, made me smile and grin wide :-)
for my ex electronic car - le petit strawberry, to serge and luisa for divine grace and beauty, for red earth, peacocks and banyan trees, for all the joyful moments spend in your company vani .......

for baoji and maman, my nana and nani, for all the family in mumbai, paris or dubai, for almonds and pistachios, elixirs and smoothies, my health that is improving day by day miraculously, for internet and mails, for spinach and kale, and all the vegetable curries that i make in a hurry, for v my first love who i will always love unconditionally......

for walks by the river, all the sessions cleaning my liver :-) for drives through richmond park, stealing kisses in the dark, to bombay, lucknow, delhi, paris, to auroville, bangalore and london for the wealth, richness and abundance, for the love that pours all the time, for trust, acceptance, grace, and the grit to walk the line.......

to hayet, julie, angele and caroline, to sheila, marion, valentina and janie, for all the teachings, i hold you incredible women in my arms, you are shakti - loving and strong........

i am grateful......
to saatchi, joy of my life
and to trevor, for a life divine............



Friday, 10 October 2008

Sunshine, Hair Care and Sune......



London - bright sunshine and blue skies.....glorious, gorgeous, great!!!

I went strolling on the high street, sat in a cafe and had carrot-celery-fresh mint juice, browsed in a bookstore and bought a couple of second-hand books, as well as coconut butter, brazil nuts and alfalfa sprouts from my favorite health food store......

Walking back home, I stopped at a hairdressers boutique for a shampoo and blow dry.
A young Danish hairdresser called Sune was the man of the day for me.....
He was radiant and open, open and flowing....filled with light that he generously shared through his words, smiles and gestures.....
Completely authentic......
I walked out of there feeling like a billion bucks - not only because he was highly competent at making me look good, but because he naturally knew how to make me feel good inside too, he knew how to add value to the moment, to our encounter - genuinely, just by wholly and truly Being who he was....
We talked and connected - it was easy - a simple being to being sharing, enriching......

Thank you Sune, Being of Light, you are a gift :-)

I believe "making others feel good" is a practice that can become perfect with more practice till it becomes our nature to truly listen, give a smile, make a kind gesture, say something nice - to a lot of people we come across or run into......
They in turn feel good, they leave you with a smile too and a lighter step and pass along that feeling to others.....
Ripple by ripple the energy expands and grows......

Being open and flowing is the direct opposite of living in fear or with judgements.
Once we let go of our hesitations, our distrust, our labeling.....our fears of being misunderstood or disillusioned, being let down or rejected......once we move beyond our own silly mind games and complicated inner jargon......and simply "be present" - free to relate, connect, link, bond, unite, touch, move, embrace, hug, laugh - our hearts open up and begin flowing.....

The world becomes a brighter place......and the people we encounter Light Beings.....