Flow....

4:15 in the morning,
all silence and peace,
only me with my self,
not a wink of sleep....
just waves once more,
of love and light,
joy and gratitude,
life shining bright....
every night i dream,
with eyes open wide,
every night i lie,
with the world beside....
i hold the universe,
right here in my hand,
nothing is not-me,
as i breathe and expand....
a car moving outside,
is a cell moving within,
the earth, sea and sky,
are my flesh, blood and skin...
the bird's sweet song,
is the beat of my heart,
i am one with the flow,
there is nothing apart.....

Liquid Feast - Day 20

Day 20 :

and time to move on......

Something within has shifted so clearly, so intensely

that the only way I can express it is through poems and

my random scribblings.....

It has been very powerful, subtle and almost beyond words,

on the spiritual level.....the feelings of connectedness, 

unity-consciousness, one taste, awareness and bliss have 

made me weep tears of joy and gratitude all day long.....

Fears disappeared, doubts faded, confusion cleared.

I got a lot of things done in this short time - the capacity

to concentrate and focus on nitty gritty boring details and simply

do what needs to be done, has been very welcome....

There is certitude and a soft clear knowing of what needs to be done

NEXT -it is such a gift of grace to see the path ahead and deeply

know that its right for you.....that it always has been too.....

Acceptance, gratitude, trust, joy.....to be cultivated and practiced,

shared and expressed......

Detox has been strong these last couple of days and my 

body has been giving me signals that it needs more than

just juices now......

So its time to eat once again and knowing what my body

needs to eat, how I will nourish it in the future - is quite

wonderful too.....

I am going to follow the 70/80 - 30/20 % rule......

At my best it will be 80-20, at my worse hopefully not

other than 70-30.......

80% Raw

80% Alkaline

80% Full Stomach

I have done it before with great success......
Time to have another go :-)

Thank you very much all of you, for being there with me,
with kindness, support and love, all throughout this mad and
crazy journey......

Fleur, deep gassho, namaskar and gratitude beyond words.....
You are precious.......

I share once more, some words I wrote before.......
scribble no 15 actually :-)

be not the mental noise, be the stillness from where it emerges, 

you are not your thoughts, just let them come and go......

be not the anger that arises, ask who is it that is angry?

who is sad ? who is it that weeps and feels so low?

be the screen on which colors move and dazzle

simply be the field where all the ideas grow.....

seek not your self in the waves big or small

that dance and clash against the shores

be the deep ocean where it all takes place

be the space from where it all flows...........

Awake......

soft, silent, subtle and strong,
filling me up from inside out,
making me melt once again,
nothing of me or mine remains.....
is this what life is all about?
no fear, no anger, not a single doubt,
just love that makes my heart shake,
my cells re-form and come awake.....
i touch and smile and sing my song,
these crazy waves i ride upon,
i cry i laugh i dance i die,
every night i'm born, every day i fly.......

Light......

in the darkness of the night,
with silence all around,
something softly awakens,
whispers in gentle sounds,
a spark within dances,
the dance of one taste,
taking me somewhere else,
beyond time and space,
where all is light all is bliss,
there is no sky no ground,
trying to look for my self,
"i" am no where to be found........

Liquid Feast - Day 12 & 13

Juice Shop in Bangalore, India

Day 12 :

I began the morning by making a Smoothie.
I was so thrilled with the bagful of Nettle, young
green leaves looking so fresh and healthy :-)
I soaked them in water as I'd read somewhere
it takes away the sting.
Then, blended them with hemp milk and blueberries.
I had been on Just Juices for 5 days, so I was quite excited about
having a smoothie and that too, with Nettles, yeah!!!!
I drank a few sips and two things happened.
My mouth began to sting, it felt so strange and it hurt.
What did I do wrong with the Nettles?
Maybe I should have juiced them instead of
blending the leaves whole?
Fleur, please help!!!!!
And secondly, something in me kind of rejected
the idea of smoothie, it felt alien after the clear energy
of juices for the past 5 days.....

So, no drink, no juice, just didn't feel like having anything for a while.
In the evening, I was hungry and got all kinds of cravings,
for savory raw foods and for cooked vegan Indian foods.
Very strong cravings.
Well, I needed something, so decided to make a raw green
savory shake. Three spoonfuls after - Yuckkkkkk!
My body definitely did not want it either.

So I decided finally ok, I'll make a green juice.
Savory Juice.
And I used cucumber, celery, tomato, kale and red cabbage.
I had half a glass, it tasted very strong and not really nice.
I've used cabbage before in my juice but maybe not in this
particular combination - I couldn't finish the glass and a little
later, my stomach began to hurt.
I felt quite sick all night long.

Quite a mad day this one - nothing really worked out,
I had almost no nourishment, I had intense cravings and no sleep.
Oh well, I've had some crazy days in my previous feast too!! ;-)

Day 13 :

I had 2 glasses of cucumber, apple and mint juice - nothing more.
My stomach was still a little sore in the morning, so I avoided any
strong green juice and gave it a rest too.....
Colonic session again in the afternoon - one of the most incredible,
powerful sessions I've ever had.....
I felt deeply connected, almost like a mystical experience but one
I shared with my therapist Anne, who is an angel in disguise!!!
We talked all along the session about spirituality, compassion, God,
Universe, healing, relationships - and both of us felt so grateful
to exchange and share with a common language, to be part of each
others journey......

I have been a little stressed about the ebook I am writing,
as I had promised some friends that it would be ready for
them yesterday and I am far from finished.
Today, I just let it go and breathed out all the tension and control.....
I am enjoying the writing of this book, loving it really, so I will just
continue to do that and the book will be finished when it will be
finished......

Juices tomorrow and this time I will stick to Juices only and be
consistent for the rest of my feast......

I am going to create a Green Food Feast for a photography session
to post on my other blog -I won't be able to have any of the food
I create, but Trevor and Saatchi will be happily pleased :-)

Ahhh, the ups and downs, the madness, the mystic moments,
the cravings and the yearnings,
the clarity and the joy, the raw emotions and being touched
by everything, the sharing and the laughter, spending time with
my sweetheart and my daughter.....

I love it, every bit of this, just the way it is.........

Liquid Feast - Day 10 & 11

 

Day 10 & 11 - Just Juice

2 litres of celery, carrot, cucumber, greens, ginger, lemon Juice

as well as my 3 litres of Water with green powder, of course....

The photo above is an old one - all the Juice I have had for these
last five days has been green in color, just a couple of carrots
added for sweetness, no fruit at all.....
In fact all the pictures posted for this feast are old ones as
I haven't used my camera for days now!! Maybe tomorrow.....

I had a colonic yesterday and it did me a world of good as always.
Greens and colonics - this is what has healed me and continues to
do so....no medicines, no drugs for any of my health challenges!!!

5 days of Just Juices and its enough for now -I haven't feasted
for these five days, I have fasted. Tonight I feel the need for more
than Juices - I'd like Green Smoothies, Shakes and soups again.
Who knows I might come back to Just Juices after a few days....

We went and got some Nettles from a patch growing next to the golf
course where Trevor goes every weekend....
So, tomorrow morning I am going to make a hemp milk,
blueberry, ginger and nettles Smoothie, sounds yum for sure :-)

During this liquid feast I am keeping away from my usual browsing
of all other food blogs - i just feel the need to be in this liquid
nourishment space right now.......

It is bright blue golden sky over here, what a lovely gorgeous
spring weekend, here's sending you warm sunshine and wishing
you all a beautiful happy Sunday!

Liquid Feast - Day 7, 8 and 9

Day 7, 8 & 9 - Just Juice

2 litres of cucumber, celery, carrot, greens, ginger, lime Juice

This is what I've had these last 3 days, simply varying the greens,

spinach, romaine, or kale.

Yesterday the detox began in earnest.

Headache, joint pains, muscle cramp.

I also felt very cold and very tired.

At the same time strangely, there were waves of gratitude, 

love and bliss, so intense and strong that it made me weep 

a few times, just tears of something I couldn't really name.....

My mind was focused and clear, with a million ideas flowing

and coming together to make perfect sense.

These three days of juice have surely done me good,

but the physical detox is hard because of my health issues.

Tomorrow I have a colonic session scheduled, so I'm sure

that will take out the toxins and ease my detox pains.

Though I'm not sure that I will continue with Just Juices
beyond another day.

Fleur in her last post has inspired me to go get Nettles.
So, this weekend I'm going to go foraging with Trevor
and get me some nettles for my juice.

With its high iron content I'm sure Nettles will help
me with my severe anemia and low iron blood.....

Thanks Fleur, you rock!!!
totally with you for Green Power :-)))

Liquid Feast - Day 6

Curly Kale

Day 6 :

2 glasses of hemp milk, sprouts, blueberries, kale Smoothie
1 bowl of raw green gazpacho Soup
2 litre of cucumber, carrots, celery, spinach, ginger Juice
3 litres of Water with green powder

Simple satisfying day today.....with just one short
energy low in the evening.....

I've taken it easy and gentle, having soups and shakes,
avocados and coconut water....its been lovely to feast
on food that my body was asking for, to listen and pay
attention, to follow the rhythm the body sets, and to
flow without effort or stress.....
Time to move on to something a little deeper, to push
the detox a little further.....I feel ready for it :-)

So on to Just Juices from tomorrow Yessssss!!!!

Short one today, I need to go back to writing my ebook
"EAT RIGHT, BE LIGHT" which has to be finished
in the next five days and I still have tons to write.....

Wishing you all a Juicy Tuesday xxx

Liquid Feast - Day 4 & 5

Day 4 :

1 glass of Coconut water

2 glasses of celery, carrot, ginger, lemon Juice

1 mug of vegetable broth

2 litres of Water with green powder

1 cup of nettle tea

Crazy day, had to rush out early and managed to just have
coconut water, out all day with nothing except some water,
by 4 I was starving and tired!!!

Luckily we were close to Richmond, so dropped in at the
health food shop and had 2 glasses of Juice!! Wheww!

We reached home at around 7 and I was exhausted
and very cold, which was strange because the whole day
had been warm and sunny, go figure!

Trevor said I needed something warm, sent me off to bed
and made me a mug of vegetable broth - veggies, greens,
herbs, spices and water in a pressure cooker,

then strained it - really delicious....I would probably not
have made anything cooked, but this really warmed me up!

Like Fleur said in her post yesterday - "make sure you have
enough juice if  out and about" - so very true!!!!

Day 5 : 

1 litre of Celery, cucumber, carrot, spinach, ginger Juice

1 big bowl of raw green soup - (avocado, tomatoes, spinach,

lemon, broccoli sprouts, ginger - blended + 2 spoons Udo's)

1 litre of cucumber, tomato, romaine lettuce, ginger Juice (YUM)

1 glass of hemp milk, blueberries, greens and ginger Smoothie

3 litres of Water with green powder

Ginger Sunday :-))))

I feel good today, my skin which looked like hell the last couple

of days (detox probably) begins to glow, clear and shine today.....

I have a lot of energy - and spent all day tidying,

arranging, clearing, putting things in their places and getting rid

of all the inessentials in the house - a great Spring Cleaning!!!

I loved everything I had today, the smoothie, the soup, the juices,

all of it yummy and very satisfying.....

No cravings, no hunger, just feelings of love and joy brimming up

along with clarity and flow.....

Trust, acceptance, gratitude xoxox

Liquid Feast - Day 3

Day 3....

2 litres of cucumber, carrot, celery, kale, ginger, lime Juice
2 glasses of Coconut water
1 glass of avocado, lime, spinach, almond milk, stevia Shake
3 litres of Water with green powder

Major hunger pangs all evening....well, to be expected
as I cooked a meal for Trevor, vegetable curry and rotis (flatbreads)
and that was definitely not easy.......

I need more savory tastes and perhaps something warm,
so this weekend it will be soups and experimenting
with a few different recipes - keeping it simple though.....

It is amazing how just a couple of days on alkaline raw vegan
liquids can clear the mind, not only clear it but also open it up....
Ideas flow in, insights appear, everything seems lit up and
a lot of rubbish disappears....all is flow.....

A slight headache, a strange metallic taste in the mouth,
and low energy......mild detox.......

I'm going to make myself a cup of Nettle and peppermint tea
and then it time to sleep....sweet dreams :-)

Liquid Feast - Day 2

Its been lovely today, bright sunshine and blue skies,
pretty colors and smiling faces.....no winter coats anymore......
Time to take out a different set of clothes :-)
Time to begin a long Liquid Feast once more......

Day 1 :

2 glasses of spinach, blueberries, hemp milk, stevia Smoothie
1 litre of carrot, celery, cucumber, lemon Juice
1 glass of avocado, kale, lime, cucumber and red pepper Shake
3 litres of Water with green powder

Day 2 :

1 glass of blueberries, kale, hemp milk, stevia Smoothie
2 litres of celery, cucumber, pear, romaine lettuce Juice
2 glasses of Coconut water
1 glass of avocado, lime, stevia, cucumber, spinach Shake
3 litres of Water with green powder

I am not following any set program or plan - only my own
Intuition.....listening to what my body needs.....

As yet I do not have the energy to cope with intense detox,
so I am doing this gently.....the hemp milk and avocado slows
down detox and provides the nourishment I need right now....
It's wonderful to not have any fixed or rigid ideas, no should's,
must's or have to's - this time there seems to be no strain or stress,
no feeling of effort surrounding this feast.....I am sliding into it
in a natural instinctive way that simply feels right to me.........

And I am not doing this alone either, I have the company of
my friend, the sweet Fleur who has been an inspiration and
support to me from the very beginning of my healing journey.
She is following her own intuition too and it is such fun to share
our experience and walk this path together :-)

A couple of weeks ago, when I was feeling low, and a little upset
about my health issues - Fleur asked me a question - Is there any
"key" that you could adjust that would make a difference?
Around the same time, Anne Page who is my colonic therapist
here in Henley, suggested that I do an exercise - go into my body
and have a look around, have a little chat with my organs and
and become aware of what my body is telling me about its needs.

I found a couple of keys and also had a chat with my body,
gosh, when you let it speak, believe me it really can go on ;-)
And I will definitely write about this here,  another day, as there
is really so much to share, so much to say.....

For now, I leave you all with spring sunshine and a big big smile :-)

On to Day 3 of the liquid feast - I am so looking forward to it!!!!

What it takes.....

it takes just a smile to fill up a heart,
it takes a small step for a journey to start,
it takes one breath to begin a life,
it takes trust and acceptance to let go of strife.....
it takes time and courage to achieve your goal,
it takes more than courage to answer your soul,
it takes deep knowing to reach for the star,
it takes all your being to become who you are......
it takes a lot of love to face all the pain
it takes song and dance to walk in the rain,
it takes just a moment for a hug and a kiss,
it takes here and now to follow your bliss.......