Song

there is a song in my heart tonight,
it swirls and sparkles, shines and lights.....
a song that fills
every corner and space,
my cells, my pores,
my eyes, my face,
a song of love, of joy and grace....
it flows in tune,
to a music of its own,
and beats a melody,
in my flesh and bones,
i dance in wonder,
let go and breathe,
smiling and laughing,
i follow my feet.......
there is a song in my heart tonight,
life is a blessing, the world is bright........

Scribbles from my journal - 17

storm here, poured all night,
wind gales and strong rain,
i tossed and turned,
my sleep ran away......
something stirred within,
restless, waiting,
my heart beat in rhythm
to the universe breathing.......
something flowed within,
in rivers of trust and grace,
the wind seeped through,
like a lover, caressed my face.......
i melted, i dissolved, i only existed,
in rivulets, brooks and streams,
i poured hard, i moved fast,
to meet the ocean of my dreams,
one with the waves,
in still deep waters,
i rested and slept in peace......

Wondering.......

all paths lead to the center,
all experiences show the way,
of how we are meant to be......
i wonder - why then do we doubt,
instead of reaching out....
embracing, including others,
and journeying in joy together?

all the cells in our body change,
every 7 years our body renews,
not a single cell remains the same.......
i wonder - who are we?
who is it we hold on to so tightly?
why do we resist the flow,
when what has been, always goes?

there is no lack, nothing missing,
everything is as it should be.....
i wonder - what are we looking for,
all the time, high and low,
when we are already ashore....
why do we yearn, ache and long,
instead of simply singing our song?

i have wondered before,
i wonder again,
i knew the answers before,
yet i question again.......
it is a spiral we evolve upon,
and often i need to remember,
for often i forget as i walk on........

Sleepless at 2 am

 
the window is open
outside and in,
a bus on the road,
is a cell moving within,
where do i stop,
where do you begin?
is there a boundary,
separating me from this world?
or is it an illusion,
we refuse to give up?

time after time,
the same lesson learned
swirling up a spiral
of death and rebirth......
in this moment,
just as it is,
the uni-verse calls
and brings me to it,
this "it" which has
no need for a name,
it quietly lights,
and ignites the flame......

in my heart and mind,
body and soul,
all is one,
and as one flows..........

Listening......

life brings you in touch with your innermost needs
and aspirations in the most incredible way......

the divine moves and talks to you all the time,
through each encounter, every event, each and every day.........

it is as if the universe and every little bit in it answers your call......

if only we opened our hearts and really listened,
there would never be a sense of loneliness or lack at all........

Position

What you see depends upon where you are standing when you look at it.

I've been reflecting on how the position I operate from totally influences my perspective on things, people and the world.

Am I functioning from an inner state, or what I call "position" of Fullness or Lack?

And the difference between the two makes all the difference in life........

Creation......

song by song, wave by wave,

dance with me night and day,

hear the music i hear, feel the moves i feel,

together we'll find our way........

i hold and bestow all melodies,

i flow in this river that flows,

throw your rays upon my path,

let me shine bright in your glow.......

you are the purusha witnessing life,

i am the swirling shakti,

step by step and beat by beat,

we become shiv parvati.......

the earth our ground, the sky our home,

the ocean our playing field,

with our smiles and grace, this world is born

as we love and sow our seeds.......

Letting go.......

this is a time of break ups and breakthroughs,

of closing old books that are read and done,

chisel away what is no longer essential,

embrace the story that has begun......

rusted patterns of hurt and dismay,

a loop going round and round,

sometimes one needs to slash it all,

and patiently wait for rennaisance.....

some who we think are close to us,

are sometimes not which is alright too,

it is not always about working on oneself,

sometimes one needs to simply cut through......

never easy to let go of people, 

always believed i had to try more,

i resisted and i persisted,

sometimes it is wiser to walk out the door.......

i can choose to learn my lessons,

through joys instead of pain,

growth lies in sunny moments,

not always in cold and rain.......

sometimes one needs to say no,

make space for the yes to flow,

no to connections with no aspirations,

yes to the ones that make you soar.........

Find your Place

a subtle sensation of peace, a slight quiver of joy

a solid feeling of calm, a smile smiling all day......

i ask myself why? how is it possible to wake up

and from beginning to end, feel this way?

anger flashes yes of course

irritation is sometimes galore

a tightness in the being at times

even moments when love is hard to find......

yet, i have understood one thing if not more

a realization that seeps deep into my core

if you accept sadness, anger, whatever, the moment it arises

it simply flows through you and leaves you with no crises.......

life brings you a rich palette of emotions that pass

if you let go of all judgements, embrace them and dance

then all life and every experience becomes beautiful to behold

you rub your hands in glee and laugh at all that unfolds.......   

you come back again and again to your inner center

this sweet soft shining heart that is strong and tender

you get back in touch with love that never went away

and in this world, with all you love, you find your glorious place.......

For Fleur.......

This journey towards healing and transformation
began almost two years ago.
The seeds were sown......something began to grow......
Territory unknown, walk your own path,
create as you go......

Up and down, round and round,
learn the lessons again and again,
in a new way.
A spiral, not a circle.......

Even healing and being at-ease,
free of dis-ease......is a path.

Not a goal to achieve......

Free from even the idea of Freedom??
Yes, ride on and see.......

Raw - 100, 80, 60, 50 who knows.......
stopped counting a long time ago.

Green juice remains a friend fidele.
Nuts, seeds, loads of greens......
Some cooked, even fish and eggs occasionally,
legumes and beans.....

I hold lightly this path, no concepts or "ways to be"
embracing whatever unfolds is the key......

46 in two months and changing careers.
A new passion, new path, new work,
moving on, letting go of old fears......

Meeting people at the point they are,
leading them gently to where they want to be.
"A Healthy Plate" launches in a few weeks......

Now in food creating,
food styling and food photography,
I am focused, involved and totally crazy about!!!!

Blossoming, Blooming, with love
and things I love to do,

I become a Fleur......too........:-)))))))