Scribbles from my journal - 16

detox.......

thoughts rise to the surface

clouding the mind

with inessentials,

a little bit of this and a little bit of that

takes up all my attention....

feelings occupy too much space

leaving none for intuition,

emotions emerge from the past

pulling me in many directions.....

a sense of solitude and aloneness

envelops me in a tight embrace,

i begin to believe for a few moments

i am disconnected

from divine love and grace.....

an ache a longing a burning

a yearning

fills my every cell and pore,

flows through the body as pain

and almost touches my core......

i sit still for hours

letting it go

letting it happen,

witnessing this detox all over once more.......

two days later, feeling cleaner and cleansed

i wonder what that drama was all about,

why every time it happens

why every time i get caught......

sipping my green juice

soothing and lovely,

i feel grace touch me again

and i know it never left me.......

perhaps the next or next or next time around

i'll have less to let go

and less to clean,

my body and mind

will be integrally transformed

totally healed and free of dis-ease........