a couple of days in paris.....and i have learnt once again, to let go of "control" - the ultimate delusion!
exactly what i need, at exactly the right time, before i leave for india, the land of no-control and perfect chaos......
this mind and its opinionated preconceived notions about how things can be or are, about how people are or can be, about how it all should be and will - when this monkey mind becomes only a witness and allows life to happen as it will, without interfering......then all these illusions of certitude, these contractions of the ego, fade away......
and what is left is - only a fresh joyfilled acceptance of whatever is happening or not-happening, every moment, as it is......
this new world that has been born during these last few months of my healing journey - is new, so totally new - what makes me think "i" already know it and can walk its terrain like an expert?
what makes me feel sure of being able to manipulate its paths and reach destinations, when "i" don't have even the slightest knowledge of its basic operating system?
this is territory that has not even been mapped yet......it is a landscape in the making......and what makes its every hill and valley, what is creating its every twist and turn.....is simply, my every step and breath, every glance and caress.....and what makes me think that "i" can decide where i place my foot next or what i look at even in a state that is my best, when "i" can't even control my mind or control my breath?!
by grace and not desire, the surrender happens........right here, right now, i smile and feel light.....
then my feet follow the sound of an inner drummer, my breath comes and goes holding hands with gratitude for what ever is or not, my mind falls still and stays only watching, my heart knows nothing and is at peace with not knowing, my soul sings the song of one taste and my spirit dances to the tune of the new world unfolding......
and all is as it is.......being made, moment to moment, by my Self, not self.........
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But I think "You" are also the drummer. Not surrender but stepping into "Yourself" and the Universe that your newfound clarity has revealed to you. It is never "meant to be." You create your own reality. How great a gift is that? You are the point the Universe is trying to make. This dance is our celebration.
much love,
rb
b,
You are so right, of course the inner drummer is my Self too, and my reality is created by my every breath and step like i said, every moment.......
And thanks for pointing out, i changed my words on the post - i use surrender not as a verb - it is not something one can "do", it is only something that happens, by grace not by desire - and it is only a surrender of your ego, which is simply the illusion of the separate self.....when that self dissolves, then you identify with one taste and find your true Self......
Then there is no need to control, no need to struggle or strive - the universe is your play field and you create and manifest in joy, a new world unfolds, ready to be explored and danced with/in, there is celebration every single moment......
Then you not only create your reality, you are the Creator of it all, then you not only create it all, but the separation between the Creator and the Created itself disappears......You are All......
You are the the scriptwriter, the actor, the producer, as well as the audience, and you are the constant screen too, on which the different movies are played.....
And all these words are finally too, only words, and the map is definitely not the territory :-)
Love you,
xxx Neeta
And the monkey mind now ever strives to expand the boundaries of this world unfolding--ever expanding, infinite boundaries. If you can imagine it, it is possible...
Sri steps up to you, looks you in the eye and sweetly asks the question, what do you want from me.
Happy trails my dear. Enjoy your leap.
xx b
simply wonderful, spot on, loving you & your blog as always...much love xxxxx
Thank you so much for your kind words yesterday. I'm really happy to have awesome juicy buddies like you. And I'm holding you to that promise of indian raw vegan recipes when I'm done! :)
- Ben
I love your blog.
Have a wonderful weekend :)
this is (as always) so incredibly and breathtakingly beautiful. . . striking that inner chord of stillness with perfect harmony. . . happy travels darling neeta and thank you for taking me with you in your heart (sigh). . . i've been longing for the transformation travel brings with every bone in my body lately. . . i keep seeing wispy clouds and rays of sunlight that aren't northeastern. . . i wonder where i'm dreaming of so unconsciously?!
i can't wait to hear your stories when you return. . .
love and xx's
jenny
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